Have Your Cake &Eat It, Too.

You see, I have recently learned that I have the power to hurt people. I never tried to purposely &intentionally do it, not saying I am purposely doing it now, but it's quite a new feeling for me. I hate hurting people or even feel like I'm inconveniencing someone. But what I'm doing now.. I, for some reason, think I can have my cake &eat it, too. So not possible.

In order to really move on, I have to really let go. No "if's," "and's," or "but's." Such a cliche. No one is going to magically walk into your life &forget all the other people you loved/love. No one is going to "save" you from a bad relationship. No one will change your mind on anything. I guess, I was hoping someone would.

Or that one person I needed saving from would change.

I'm young. I can't stress that enough. Drama is unnecessary. All this stress pointless. If things don't work out, things don't work out. It's stupid to use all my energy trying to fit a square pog into a circular hole. Only time can tell if things will work out or not.

Right now, I'll be chasing happiness.

The Evolution of Love.

Recently, I've learned that sometimes love isn't enough. I've learned that I'm young and I need to see what's out there. I've learned that it's unfair to commit to someone if other aspects are not aligning up. As much as you may love someone, it is sometimes better to be away from them. Time tests all and patience is necessary. I am growing to be patient. I am growing to understand that effort and love may not always be the same.

Will write more later.