Girl Meets Boy.

Girl meets boy. Boy is intriguing. Girl likes boy. Boy likes girl. Girl opens up to boy. Boy tells girl he isn't into anything serious. He's gotten hurt before &would rather not go through all the drama, insisting the same thing will happen. Girl still trusts boy. Boy acts like an asshole, trying to push her away. Girl is in a Catch-22.

How the hell do guys expect girls do be faithful when all they do is act like douchebags? There are two choices for this girl: Stay and get treated like crap by this asshole in time OR leave and make this boy further his dislike and distrust for girls? Guys, we try so hard. But after a while, your games get old.

I didn't plan to like you this much.

Isn't that what alwayssss happens in these modern "relationships." Young adults' fascination with labels - 50% need them and the other 50% are scared as hell of them. What do I think? Ignorance is bliss, but don't think I'm that stupid. What's lacking from "relationships" these days is respect. When did people get so scared of all this?

But then again, maybe I'm not that jaded just yet. &Hey, sorry if you didn't plan to like me this much. Some people just have that effect.

Quote of the Day.

The thing about chicks is you only have to be a fraction as nice to them as you are mean to them to get them to like you again.
-Puck on Glee (S2E6, "Never Been Kissed")

Hope for the Best, Prepare for the Worst.

That's honestly the worst fucking advice ever. It just allows mood swings to occur. You're thinking... "Oh, blah blah is so awesome." Then the next minute... "Wait, but this and this happened. Is blah blah the blah blah I think they are?" Yeah, that's pretty ambiguous, but I have a feeling if you've gone through it, you know exactly how it is. In the moment, you're lost. You are too afraid to let go, but you are too curious to just leave it alone. It's a freakin' Catch 22. So I say, fuck hoping for the best &preparing for the worst. Be a fucking boss. The end.

I'm sorry if all my cursing offended anyone, by the way.

What Do You Get When You Fall in Love?

A GUY WITH A PIN TO BURST YOUR BUBBLE.

Why is it that whenever you let yourself want something, that thing gets taken away from you in a blink of an eye? And when you don't want something anymore, it comes running back to you? Life, right? Fuck that.

Quote of the Day.

&Now I'm pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door. I'd open up and you would say, "Hey, it was enchanting to meet you." All I know is I was enchanted to meet you.
-"Enchanted" by Taylor Swift

Quote of the Day.

I think most people in their twenties go through some sort of depression. If you’re successful at a young age, no matter the profession, there has to come a time when you reevaluate everything, what it means to you. Is this what I want to do for the rest of my life?
-Kirsten Dunst

DECIEMBRE.

It's Finals week. I just deactivated my Facebook account &I have quickly moved on to find my next procrastinating distraction: re-opening my eyes to the world of blogging. So here it is:

This semester has easily been the most distracting academic semester ever. Longing for Greece, longing for being back on the east coast, long distance relationship, break ups, dating, too much texting/messaging, concerts/gigs/shows, presentations. Out of all that, who has work for a part-time job, research internship and Physics, Biochemistry, Medical Physiology, and Creative Writing? OH THAT'S RIGHT. ME.

Yeah, my brain has been on overload these past few months, but really nothing of it had to do with school. Oh well. You win some, you lose some, right?

So what have I learned so far? Don't try to rush things. Things may seem wonderful at first, but the light dims. And you can do so much better. There are plenty of fish in the sea. Like, really. It's ridiculous. &For a boy-crazy person like me, it's a good realization. Andddd I need a fuckin' life.Being not so serious about school this semester makes me feel all sorts of weird. Maybe it's the calm before the storm? Storm = med&grad school? Maybe, but I sure as hell can't wait for winter break.

Anywho, I think that's enough of an update. My mind is getting bored again. Till next time.

Have Your Cake &Eat It, Too.

You see, I have recently learned that I have the power to hurt people. I never tried to purposely &intentionally do it, not saying I am purposely doing it now, but it's quite a new feeling for me. I hate hurting people or even feel like I'm inconveniencing someone. But what I'm doing now.. I, for some reason, think I can have my cake &eat it, too. So not possible.

In order to really move on, I have to really let go. No "if's," "and's," or "but's." Such a cliche. No one is going to magically walk into your life &forget all the other people you loved/love. No one is going to "save" you from a bad relationship. No one will change your mind on anything. I guess, I was hoping someone would.

Or that one person I needed saving from would change.

I'm young. I can't stress that enough. Drama is unnecessary. All this stress pointless. If things don't work out, things don't work out. It's stupid to use all my energy trying to fit a square pog into a circular hole. Only time can tell if things will work out or not.

Right now, I'll be chasing happiness.

The Evolution of Love.

Recently, I've learned that sometimes love isn't enough. I've learned that I'm young and I need to see what's out there. I've learned that it's unfair to commit to someone if other aspects are not aligning up. As much as you may love someone, it is sometimes better to be away from them. Time tests all and patience is necessary. I am growing to be patient. I am growing to understand that effort and love may not always be the same.

Will write more later.